God and the God apparent.

I believe in God without being implicit about my belief in speech, in my normal exchanges of speech. I have just started reading Dr S. Radhakrishnan's book on Indian philosophy with intent. He has stimulated some perceptions on God. God apparently exists, and there is no place where he does not exist, but he cannot be fathomed, nor perceived, as the man wants to perceive him. This is a dichotomy of a very profound nature. Man does want to perceive God, but he is unable. Man is capable of perceiving God, as he perceives his surroundings, but is unable. I do not mean that man wants to see God in form. I mean to say, that we are perceiving God, and yet we cannot identify the perception. We do not perceive God, or so we feel. But we are perceiving God. That has been the reality of the great servants of God, and of those whom God loves unimaginably, and that is the reality for me too, even though I do not perceive God every moment. If God exists, and there is no space which is not occupied by God, then how do we not perceive God? Is it possible to perceive the only thing which exists? Can perception perceive itself? I do not mean to say, that we should all perceive ourselves as God, but I mean to say, that the only meaningful existence in existence, is God. So if only God exists, then why do we see God in so many forms? Why do we perceive ourselves? Are we perceiving 'ourselves', when we perceive ourselves? We perceive others, too, like we perceive 'ourselves', and like I said, God is the only meaningful existence. So, what do we perceive, when we perceive? How do we perceive everything, except God? Which believer of God, does not want to perceive God, above any other perception? Why can we not identify our perception of God, like our other perceptions, even if the perception will not be like other perceptions? Perhaps, we have to look beyond. Beyond our normal perceptions. How do we do that? By contemplating our perceptions? Perhaps. If we contemplate our perceptions, we are likely to gain an insight to our perceptions. I have come to realize, that the most passionate experience, is just complete dispassion, which has been colored by passion. Another person may feel, that our passion is out of place, when they see us passionate about something. Who is to say, whether the other person is right or wrong?