The debate on good and Bad.

What is to be done, which is good, and what is not to be done, which is bad? This is the debate which has it's origins, from the time, when man was conscious about perception. Generally, what we believe in is good, and what we disbelieve in is bad. I may believe, that eating a pastry may be good, and the resultant effect, which the eating of the pastry may have on me, will be bad. Now, was the idea, of eating the pastry, so good, if the action may not be good for my constitution? Is life like this situation, where we eat the pastry, and regret the consequences of the eating? How is it that we can exist in such a paradox? The better the pastry, the bigger the regret afterwards, perhaps. It is perhaps more important to me, how I view the eating of the pastry. Now, how can we say that good and bad exists, if what I have just expressed is true? There is no question of good and bad, if I want to eat the pastry, and I know that the pastry may make me suffer a heart condition. How can I believe in the good taste of the pastry, and disbelieve in the heart condition which may arise? But perhaps, human beings perceive in this manner. I eat the pastry, which is good. Then I get a heart condition, which is bad. Then I visit the doctor, which is good. Then he gives me an exorbitant medical bill, which is bad. Has a human being really believed in this paradox of existence? I have experienced a situation in my life, which I have accepted, totally, as neither good nor bad. I am completely satiated by the experience. I find this contentment in the experience, to be unsurpassed. It must be the best thing to happen to me, but I cannot call it good, even if the word good is the only word which exists in my vocabulary. I would rather not describe the experience. Why? How can one describe, what is neither good nor bad? How does one describe contentment? There is no reason for contentment. A person is not content, because there is a reason. My saving grace, in the past, was that I tried to fit in very consciously with what was good and bad, and never fit in. I did not know contentment then. So this contentment, must have existed when I was not aware of the contentment. I tried to fit into good and bad, as a child, among my peers, as an adolescent, as an adult, and I have not succeeded, in the least. Perhaps the reason is that when I justify the good I do, I also justify the bad I do, because of the good that I do.